I can see it as I drive onward, a giant arched passage, and suddenly a feeling rushes through my body. A feeling that cannot be described with words. It is like I am entering a whole new world, a world where dreams can become reality. A place I never want to leave. And, as I drive over that last rise and see that world come into view, I feel something that I only feel here... a surge of joy...such a rare feeling for me. The contrast of the beautiful green and red soil fields meeting the blue sky... artwork only God could create. What a treat for my eyes. I stop and watch horses in a pasture and feel wonderful memories of what I once had. A past where moments that bring me such pleasure are now scant. Memories of confidence and freedom. Nobody is in a hurry here. Relax...take your time. Breathe in the scent of red mud mixed with salt air. This is a land with family and friends that give me a feeling of belonging and importance. Freedom to be myself. Now it is time to leave and it hits me. What if I never get back here.... what if this is my last visit...what if...what if? Feelings of sadness, depression.... tears run down my face. Out of my control. I don't want to leave this home....ever.